Thursday, April 27, 2006

nothing to post much except to sae tat i lurve you loads still... yupp... you noe tat i dun wanna lose you and all de tyme i kip dreaming of you... irealli wann you so much... pls dun live miee can?? i do wadever you wann to have you back with miee... i swear to god over mine body... if i am too good for you, i mux be feeling wad if i am not good enough for you... i lurve you loads and nothings gonna change tat....

9:08 PM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

nobodi cares abt it.. nobodi realli noe how i feel deep inside... its no wonder i let all mine emotions go wild inside and causes miee to have breakdowns... i rather just have all de breakdowns and den die infront of all of you... i realli wanna try mine best not to get worked up so easliy.. but mine family??? wads family for??? to have fun??? more lykly to get fuck around... family is nothing to miee... i dun even tink i have a family now... i tink tat everyone around me is just a shadow of de past... de once cheerful jonathan is now a faking screwer... an asshole... a mofo... a dunno wadever you wanna call miee...i realli dun care oreadi.... its de end of de world for miee oreadi mah... regardless of wad you sae... mine mind is made up liao... you see me, happi is good for you... i neva ever wanna feel happi again... i jus wanna get back to you for tats all i noe... i am an asshole...
realli i am...
i shouldnt have make tat mistake..
mock miee for all you wann..
jeer at miee too...
i dun care for anithing...
de once jonathan everybodi once noe is gone forever...
keep telling mineself tinks will change but actualli...
nothing is ever gonna change...

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itsjusafakingdarkworldoutdhereformiee
nobodieverreallicarsabtmieeatall
iratherdiedenlykitcontinuetohauntme

9:03 PM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

hey all... pigglett... dun be sad kkz??? yupp... you noe tat i am dhere for you lah kkz?? yupp... wadever you do ryte, rmb tat i am alwaes behind cheering you now wann k??? yupp... you can trust miee with tat hor.. yupp... you noe tat i care for you more den anithing else wann wad ryte?? it hurts me to see you sad leh.. yupp.. so do takkiar of urself hor.. got anithing you can call miee and talk wann kkz?? yupp... do talk to miee online lah.. cant wait to see you leh... you will alwaes be in mine heart wann kkz?? no matter wad ur decision is.., ur frenz will be 120% behind you wann kkz??? yupp.. do cheer up lah... if you wanna patch with her, go ahead lah... yupp... nothing wrong with patching up.. i will support you de.. and so will ur other frenz kkz?? haii... aniwae... talk to miee tmr lah.. yupp.. i be waiting for you lah at de back... lurbe you loads kkz??? muaxk... takkair hor dardar... will miss you... nytes...
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[love you alwaes]
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6:41 PM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

todae napfa test stinks... haii... i cant do pull ups wann.. its being proven... me and vincent cant do it wann... lol... we did..... ZERO!!! yupp... and we are proud of it... but de others i still can pass lah... so its not tat bad... but i jus dun lyk to sweat alot lah... it is so.... EWW!!! you noe...haha... aniwae... school was ok todae... we came to skooh late as usual and we managed to avoid getting caught but "thanks" to desmond, we went to give ourselves in to de security guard lors... yupp... but den... guard was actualli a nice guy lah... so better not do it next tyme lors...

aniwae... todae lessons i managed to stay awake for all de classes and guess wad... i going for some leadership workshop lah... yupp.... and i still dunno wad to wear to do leh... haha... i noe... i sotong lyk nuts lah... but den... oh well... guess wad... i had MACDONALD'S in class todae... oh mine god... it was so nice lah... de whole class was eating during maths lah... (actualli... most of us were eating... except de guai wanns)...

aniwae...
finish skooh... i wanted to send her home so ask her frenz but dey sae she wanted to go home alone and den she can sleep... den i was sad lah.. but cant be help wad... she oso has her freedom mah... yupp... i dunn wanna be overprotective over her... she has her life too you noe.. haii... i realli wish to go home with her again... if piglett you see dis... i jus wanna sae dis to you... (i realli miss going home and talking to you.. i hope to do tat with you almost everydae... which i mean... you go home alone too lah... dun wanna invade your life too much)... <3<3<3

realli cant stop tinking off you so much... i dunno whether i am being a good stead... i realli nid help with mineself... but den... i love you loads... and i wanna treat you de best mah.. pls forgive me kkz?? yupp... i trying mine best to make you happi lah... tho i dunno whether am i succeding anot lah... yupp.... haii.... but den.. i hope i am doing well... aniwae... i wanna send you home realli badly so tat i can be with you.... yupp..

ttelgip.... i evol uoy os hcum dna i aven annaw evael ruoy edis ta lla.... ssimuoysdaol...
understand ryte??? i hope so.... i hope we will last forever or as long as possible... yupp...
and i realli dun lyk tat "bitch" in ur class leh... keep staring... feel lyk gouging her eyes out lah... yupp.... at concert stare... everywhere i go oso stare... tink wad... you veri nice to see ar... BITCH!!!!
no wonder you hate her so much ryte, dardar??
hmm...
i better stop wryting liao lah... better eat now.. later she worri... how?? i dun wann her worri... onli i can worri for her lors...
yupp....
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you will alwaes be missed by miee pigglett...
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daes to go.... countless.... till time stops,
i will neva ever wanna leave you....

8:34 PM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

tuesdae... i love you so much yet i hate you so much too... stupid teachers just dun understand me... i dunno wad to do with those mofos lah... faggots.... wads wrong with all of you... neva being kids before mah... NO CHILDHOODS WANN!!!! make miee so faking angey and mad lah.... neva mind... its ok... i am cool with tat wann... yupp.... aniwae... tmr have concert leh... hahaha.... can go home late leh... lol... so happi leh... no nid stay at home do nothing at all lah... hehe... gonna see miee wear till veri de man leh... "MAN" sia.... haha...

aniwae... todae went to cut hair leh... haha... cut until quite nice lah but dunno whether she will lyk it not le... tell miee tmr kkz??? yupp... cant wait to see you lah... yupp... love tto see tat smile of yours... i hope you will be forever mine.... haha... yupp... mine one and onli gal...

yupp.... hair short short veri cooling leh... haha... mine and edmund cut hair... edmund hair lyk dunno wad to sae leh... lol... mine nice lah... fring is slanting to one side de... cool sia... i hope to boast to de whole world to see leh....

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cant stop tining of you...
haha... yupp..
hope tomyte wont happen again lyk wad i told you jus now..
so mahlu leh..

haha.. aniwae... i hope to go out with you some dae... ani dae is possible for miee... cause i wil do anithing for you wann... i just wann you to be dhere with miee alwaes... yupp... tats all i ask from you... i love you and you noe it.... PIGLET!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!
yupp.... aniwae... thursdae hope to send you home again leh... yupp... i feel glad to have you be mine stead... hope you too... yupp.... i wil treat you lyk..... hmmm... dunno how to sae... treat you extremely good can liao... yupp... love you... haha... enuff crapping liao lah... i go eat ryte now... so tat will not keep and make you worri lah... yupp... muackzz... =P (tigger and pigglet forever hor!!)

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(misses you so much tat i will die for you)
tinking of you 24/7...
loving you...
11 daes and counting.... 365 daes is mine target...
love you loads...

jonathanseowchuanshien
times up for your grave NOW!!
21h11min30s
11/04/06

8:09 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

... i am so sian... jus reach home leh.... dunno wad to do... so went online... i wishing to see her online now... i talk to her ytd and i was so happi... if onli everydae was lit dat... i be de happiest boy in de world... hahaha... its jus a wish and i hope for it to be a reality...

piglett.... i am so sorri i didnt talk to you for a long tyme... so i hope tmr i get a chance to send you home after mine dragonboat training leh... yupp... tell miee if you staying back in skooh not lah... cause i dun wann you get scolding from your parents oso de... i am not mean to you.. cause i love you...

gosh... i realli dunno wad to do... do i realli tink i am a jinx??? i tink i am kkz?? yupp... i realised it again.. i tot it will be all gone but den... its coming back to haunt me again... haii... nvm... i will just put up a brave front... i just dun wann anibodi in skooh to noe tat deep inside miee...
emotions is building inside of mieee.... i dun wanna mine dear piglett to worri so much... yupp... its ok de wor... yupp....
jus for you... i will neva be sad... i love you loads and you noe tat... i make an oath by swearing upon every freaking things in mine room and tat if i break it, i will kill mineslef with de things i swear on.. even if its a soft toy... yupp... i promise you tat...

i wish....
i have a bedroom full of nice stuffs so tat it can cheer miee up...
i wish to have a house full of sweet stuffs to enjoy mieself in...
but mostly... i jus wann to be with you even if i dont have de things i wish i have...
i love you loads...

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realli dun wan it to be dis way...
but at least i still have you by mine side... i love you loads, pigglett....
alwaes be mine...

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de daes i alwaes dream of being with you... i hope we will last for a veri veri veri long tyme..
it shall be ur best memories... i love you...

8:06 PM

Friday, April 07, 2006

hahaha... todae is SPORTS DAE!!! i woke up and nearly got late but its ok lah de.. cause.... i oso dunno.. mayb cause i wanted to see her so badly leh... haha... she todae on duty so i wanna see her in her uniform again mah.. yupp... aniwae... guess wad... YELLOW HOUSE IS FIRST AGAIN!!!! de CHAMPS HAVE LANDED!!!! haha... i noe i being lame ryte now... of cus lah.. i crap wen it reaches 11 plus at nyte... oh well... i jus wanna make dis short lah... sports dae was i complete waste of tyme and..... I MISS MINE PIGGLETT SO MUCH!!!

hai.... i broke miee promise and decieve to be punished by you lah... yupp..
note to all guys...
BREAKING UR PROMISE TO A GAL IS PUNISHABLE BY LAW!!!
OR DE GAL'S GUIDE TO A PERFECT BOYFREN!!!
haha....

i jus wanna tell you i miss you so much and love you so much again... yupp....

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jonny boi de wonderful kid is here to vanish into ur brain...
let de illusions kill ur senses...
gothic is de trend of de future...
GOTH!!
i lyk to LMAO!!!!!

jonathan was here...
lies in his grave...
six feet under...
gone into de underworld.....

10:20 PM